When We Were Small

2012 oil on linen48 x 48 inches

When We Were Small

11/09/2012

Way back then

When we were small

We were together through it all.

Then, you were gone.

To go on, my instinct

Erased every trace of you.

But a seed of remembrance

Remained, unnamed

Growing slowly

Eating away

The charred embers of my resistance,

Allowing me to love.

Somehow, I still stand

With flower in hand

And heart,

Tethered always somehow

To the vague memory of our start in life together.

This memory is a faint force

Unrelenting in its haunting.

When I risk being crushed by sadness,

I see it as a source of all the sweetness

I have to give.

Help me to forgive myself

That way back then when we were small

I had to let you go at all.


Trixie Pitts 2017 (since 2009)